Don't Blame On It

HeeeyyHoooo
Avril Lavigne singing on my ears...hahahahaha
actually i feel so sleepy right now, but i think its better to write some words (well, im not sure it will be some :)). Many bad feeling running in my head and my heart
So lets start the story:
Today, the 16th of November 2010
i got cold, sore throat and sniffing all day... (which is its ruin my daily)
and in class, finally my name showed up..
yap..yap..yap...
i went in front of the class and was starting my presentation...
and when my lecture cirtizied it, i just so upset and angry (yess lil bity angry), because i thought i just done like what he said...
and i just realized that i have no different with him...i dont wanna be a loser in argumentation...And the fact is: its not a game or im not in the court...we are learn....
And i just figured it out that: Yessss i have mistakes, i mean my proposal has mistakes...and nobody will become a loser from it....maybe im too afraid too become a loser....but, there are no a winner if there are no loser..and you will never know what a winner feeling if you never be a loser...



aaaannddd Nowww a big sound shout out over my head :WHY DID YOU, WHAT DID YOU DO THAT?
my mind just going likes babies....
why i couldn't just listen and try to realize..why i had to felt so upset and said unproper language behind him...
oohhh,,,,
yeaaaaaahhh
many things that i can learn from this EVENT (ajhahahaha):
Think before talk.....Think and Think...Twice is not enough...i need more....


and i know my lecturer is ain't that bad...He choosen his way to teach...and thats him....just undersand it...
aaaaahhhh
some part i hate my thoughts....too easy too flew with condition and people around me...
hope can fix it..
and im bloody trully sad right here....
:(




ok i think thats enough...fell better after write this things.....